Live as you like

Never had I thought before,what it feels to live as you like. Call it a coincidence or a "meant to be", I was going through pinterest  looking for articles on "ways to be happy" when I saw my niece playing with her stuffed toys, talking to them and laughing for no reason. Something ran down my spine making me shiver.I had to ask myself,"why can't I be happy like her"?! I mean, for no reason: just like that.I always had the answer. Even I was care-free, crazy and happy once. Since when did I need reasons to be happy? When did I change? How can I be myself again? And most importantly, how can I live as I like? These questions turned out to blessings.

Now, each day I wake up to live my life to the fullest, like I am living for the first and the last time.I try my best to let go of thoughts and things I have no control over. I have painted my grey, dull days with my favourite sunset orange afterall this life is my masterpiece and I am an artist.

till the end of time....

Thousands of passer by,thousands of eye contacts yet single glance of yours and my world stood still-collywobbles, euphoria and what not?! as if the universe within you collided with the universe within me,as if we had always been together yet never.

Now that I have found u I will not let you go and will make a vow to love you till my last breath. You must have been with me in the life before so i want you in the life after and after  till the end of time!!!

Love or Lust

I could be your soul food
You seek for eye candy
I could love you unconditionally
You go for love that comes in handy

Faces beneath maquillage, yet to be unveiled
Through words you've hypnotized
through deeds you've failed

Slender, svelte and divine
that's where your thoughts fly
To kind compassionate and loving
you turn a blind eye

I could lead you a long way
You preferred lust to love
and chose beauty that fades away

Days of yore

Yes,those were the days!!! We used to talk about constellations, dreams and hopes. I know u ain't a 'look at those stars,tell me how you feel' kinda person now. You may have more important stuffs to take care of. We still talk,we do but i sense that awkwardness, u make me realize I irk you. May be I do but let me be honest you make me unassertive.

I'm  loving the sound of my footsteps moving away from you. It took me decades to find myself, to cherish myself . I will never lose it again, my worth, my self -for I am a Phoenix who burned into ashes to find myself. I clearly owe no apologies for the mess I am. You saw chaos in me,someone someday will treat me like an art.